Blindness is not what defines me, but it certainly influences who I am and how I experience the world, as well – I’m sure – as how the world experiences me. Though being blind does not stop me from doing most things sighted people can, it does mean that often I have to find other, more creative ways of doing them. As a female in my late twenties, living in the heart of one of the most beautiful and progressive cities in the country, with an insatiable appetite for travel and adventure and a brand-new guidedog, I am continually met with this challenge in an endless variety of ways throughout my day to day life. I decided to start this blog as a way of getting more perspective on and making better sense of my experiences. After reaching a major transition point – a shift from always having a strong sense of what I want and where I am headed, to then receiving my Masters degree and suddenly no longer having any idea of how to proceed in life – I have a strong desire for some new form of inspiration and guidance. So, I am hoping that writing will help me to clarify a sense of purpose and direction in my much more uncertain, post academic life.
Thursday, November 18, 2010
The Depths of Frustration With my New (Second) Guidedog - June 2010
Working with a new guidedog is so much more difficult than I ever imagined it would be. Today I feel like shit because I canceled an appointment. On top of my new printer not working for any apparent reason so I couldn’t print out the form I needed to bring with me, I canceled the appointment because I don’t trust my dog enough to get me home safely. I know there are many reasons why I shouldn’t feel horrible about myself, like there is something more I could and should have done; but I do. Though I am continually learning to further my independence, day by day, often It is still difficult not to feel something is terribly wrong with me when I can’t (or don’t feel comfortable ) accomplishing everyday tasks that others (sighted people) do with ease.
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